This is all my life is about right now. Which is why I have not updated this in too long. Change takes time. Change takes courage. Change is exhausting.
I'm typically eager for change but also anxious for the process. I become easily irritable waiting for it to actually happen. I've changed addresses. Relationship statuses and professional outlooks for myself....all at once. Change like this is necessary especially when it equates personal happiness. Yet, change is certainly not easy. Instead of delving into the personal, here's a short free flow of thoughts/poem that I've written recently. This is my way of accepting and interpreting the changes I've been forced to and chose to endure. The words and physical structure of the writing are both strategic. And I promise to update this more often:)
The soft sounds of changing melodies shakes the tight strings of my insides.
as I flutter
and try to disappear
into the harmonica.
Its a chance to reflect and fly away.
To find a place of WHOLEness and complete emptiness.
Going back and forth with minor interruptions. These are the same interruptions that have shook my whole life.
The same ones that have tightened the internal cords and swiftly snipped them apart from their bleeding source of being.
There is no life.
But yet a glimmer of complete trust and yellow satisfaction consume the retinas of my eyes.
If only this was a song book and those piano lessons meant something.
If I only could recreate something as beautiful and harmonious as the light music within my soul...
all the souls...